Spring Meltdowns and New Beginnings

son graduating

My soon-to-be graduate

Since late February when I had the honor of being a guest on Jordana Green’s radio show to tell my story as part of National Eating Disorders Week, I have been on a bit of a blogging hiatus. The spring months have always been tricky for me, especially in the last several years. And while this spring has been filled with all sorts of wonderful transitions, they are transitions nonetheless; and change is not my strong suit. There are my internal changes that include, but are not limited to, a certain chemical combustion occurring within my body that cranks up my temperature to a mere 90,000 degrees (especially at 3 a.m.) and turns the thoughts in my brain onto a high-speed, continuous spin cycle, for which I cannot seem to find the “off” switch. And there are the external changes that include, but are not limited to surviving yet another senior spring break trip (can I be grandmothered out of the next two?), my oldest son deciding to head to across the country to California for college, my baby turning 11 (just days after a shower door fell on her and broke her wrist…I know, alert the authorities), my husband turning 50 (and yes, of course he recently joined a band), and my oldest daughter finishing her sophomore year of college and returning home for the summer.

soph and jo

The girls reunited

Turning 50

My husband the drummer

So while the internal changes make it a little more challenging to roll with and enjoy all of the exciting external changes, I am doing my best (thank goodness for yoga). And although I am not blogging as regularly as I would like to be, I am still writing. A lot.  Submitting 5,000 words a week to my amazing editor at She Writes Press  so that my book on self-care for moms can head to the publisher and then finally into moms’ hands.

self-care book

The writing process…

And there are few other fun items to report: At the end of April, I had an incredible experience of being among dozens of Minnesota writers, comedians and musicians who performed at Rebecca Bell Sorensen and Laurie Lindeen’s Morningside After Dark Series.morningside

The spring theme was “Melt With You” and the piece I read, “The Season of Melting and Letting Go” is published in The Mid (with a slightly different title) is about how the spring season parallels my process of letting my son, a high school senior, go. Lastly, I was hired to write a Mother’s Day article for AskMen.Com about how men can win the approval of their wife’s or girlfriend’s mother. While I initially found it exciting to have a 20-something male editor email me and say that he thinks I would be a good person to write this and ask if I would be interested, when I began to write the piece, I felt something different…I felt old. But it also opened up my mind to how exciting the next phase of motherhood will (hopefully) be. Welcoming significant others and eventual spouses into the family —Even more “kids” to love!

But for now, and for the next several weeks of “May Madness,” I will try to remember to breathe amidst the flurry of finals, baseball and soccer games, grad parties and another school year coming to a close. And on June 4th, when my oldest son walks down the aisle to accept his high school diploma, I will be cheering him on (most likely through tears) as he transitions from the first chapter of his life to his next. And I look forward to seeing what this next chapter brings…

“In the end, only three things matter: how much you loved, how gently you lived, and how gracefully you let go of things not meant for you.” –Buddah

Comments

  1. You have earned that hiatus! And it’s hardly been a hiatus with all that writing, my friend!

  2. juliecgardner says:

    June 4th – that’s tomorrow! Congratulations to him and to you for being so brave to watch him go to California for college! (Where is he going? We live in Cali so I’m always thrilled to hear about kids coming here – although it makes getting in so competitive for us – it forces the schools to keep improving to live up to their reputations!)

    My son will be a senior next year so we are knee-deep ourselves in thinking about the future. My daughter will be a junior. Within two years, they will both be up and out. I’m trying to soak it all up and still write. So you’re an inspiration with your pace.

    Good luck with graduation, with the shewrites manuscript and with this next phase of motherhood!

    • Julie, thank you SO much for your thoughtful comment! Yes, June 4th it is! So hard to believe! He tried on his cap and gown today and the tears started flowing. And you are in the thick of it too! With both of yours leaving in the next two years…yikes! But trying to soak it up and continue to write is a very good call. For me, they go together!
      Our son is heading to Pitzer College in Claremont. He will be playing baseball there. Are you anywhere near there? If so, how awesome would it be to meet in person when I go visit him!
      Thank you so much for your well wishes. So wonderful to hear from you and I do hope to see you in Cali!!
      XO

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